Transition time? maybe?? I dunno...

Every few years it seems the dynamics of my social circle and personal life starts to change. It's starting to happen again. And not only that but change, regardless how small and insignificant, somehow always spawns a whole about-face of new adjustments and transitions completely unrelated. w.t.f.? For better or worse I've realized it's probably the unavoidable reality of growing of not just myself but everyone around me. Life is happening. And selfishly I often wish that everything and everyone would just stay the same, only accepting transition on MY timetable. The universe did not get the memo.

So here I sit on this surprisingly warm September evening with what seems to be an inexplicable and irrational cloud over me. Yet despite its irrationality I rationalize it away. In the midst of madness I find myself suspiciously calm; Like everything is going accordingly. And at the same time, I feel like I am observing myself, while seeking affirmations from the sky asking that this is supposed to happen right?

right.

New changes "to" me are the best things "for" me right?

of course. see the big picture.

And somewhere in the confusion I feel confident the universe does know what its doing. Undeterred by my well planned timetable, the universe has made plans of its own exclusively for each one of us.

I know I get stuck in my head sometimes where problems and obstacles turn into impossible feats. It's so easy to put up walls and reside within, surrounded with all your thoughts, worries and fears. It's there where I haphazardly make up wrongs for myself. I make myself wrong for some of the following:

- For not spending enough time with family
- For procrastinating simple tasks
- For drinking too much coffee
- For being quiet
- For not being insightful
- For spending too much time online
- For being boring
- For taking my time

But I have to remember what I make up are roadblocks. I make up restraints. You know, all these things we make ourselves wrong for are solely fueled by our own mind anyway.


It's time I get out of my own way and roll with the universe.

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QOTD: What's missing from your life is what you're not bringing to it.

Bl(ah)g

Sitting in Starbucks having unexpectedly created a blog; journal; would you call it a diary? (um, maybe not), I realize how long it's been since I've actively put my thoughts pen to paper or more accurately - scribe to screen. Anyway, it's more the feeling of the lack of creative writing that has inevitably vacated my fingertips since finishing school.

And despite the time that's passed, how much more independent I've become, how much more comfortable I am, it's this right here that I realize how much I've regressed. Written expression. Which I'm sure is directly proportional to my day-to-day mindset too. Like so many I think get too focused and my perspective becomes too tunnel-vision to realize there are aspects of growing and life experiences that I'm missing. So while this may be a small nudge in the direction to trying something new and changing comfort zones, let's hope this is a new start improving those sticking points we forget to work on. 


Quote of the day (QOTD): The chaos of the world is calmed one person at a time. Inner peace results in outer peace. Play your part.

peace & love.
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